Sunday, April 30, 2006

'Fans who share music aren't thieves'

Important musicians such as Barenaked Ladies and Avril Lavigne have formed the Canadian Music Creators Coalition to among other things, support fans being sued by the Big Four Organized Music cartel. In their first white paper, the artists say, "Fans who share music are not thieves or pirates. Sharing music has been happening for decades."

It's been happening for decades, I mean, cmon, that has to mean it's OK, right?

I'm all for sharing, but we need some better arguments. I'm pretty sure child pornography has been happening for decades.

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wordpress

I'm trying out this blog service I just heard of, called WordPress. So far it's ok, the setup is very similar to Blogger, though I think Blogger's is a bit more clean and consolidated. Wordpress does have a really nice feature that gives you stats on your page (who has visited, a graph of the amount of growing viewers; it also tells you how many people got to your blog through a search engine, etc). I really like that feature. The only thing that seems to be missing is a flexible template editor. They give you cool templates like on Blogger, but I haven't found a way to edit it so i can put in my own header, change link colors and rollover effects, etc. Until I know I can do that, I'm not going to switch over. If you're curious, you can start one for free by going to WordPress.com. They also have a handy feature that lets you import all of your posts, comments, and preferences from Blogger (something I did on my WordPress page).

And yes, WordPress is RSS compatible.

Friday, April 28, 2006

campaign website

As a special treat for all you blogger users, I'm posting this preview of our campaign's official website. I'm not ready to publicly release it (mainly because I haven't shown it to Matt yet) but hope to be doing so soon. Any tips or comments on the design/usefulness are appreciated, as well as ideas for what else can be put on there.

http://web.mac.com/fredharrell/iWeb/sensesay/Matt%20for%20
President.%20John%20Mark%20for%20Vice%20President.%20Both%20for%20You..html

Thursday, April 27, 2006

sc elections

Before I begin studying for my Biology test tomorrow, I feel it necessary to journal my thoughts and anxieties at the moment. For some reason, student council elections are stressing me out and seem to be all I can think about.

What is it with this thing? I keep telling myself "It's OK, it's just student government, if you lose you'll get over it and be fine." And that's really how I feel: I'd be just fine if I lost. But I really want to win.

I'm nervous about it though. I don't know why. I try to forget about it, think about something else, pray that God would give me peace about it, but still the same obsession fills my mind. I'm MUCH improved from a few days ago though, I was a nervous wreck for a while there. I'm starting to precede in my mind everything I do and say with "How would this affect my reputation as a good candidate?" It's driving me nuts.

Please pray for me, that I would be able to calm down, since I know that I'm over-reacting BIG TIME and that elections won't take place for four more weeks, the last of which will be the "posters/campaigning" week. I wish I could put up my posters now, but Mrs. Travis said "No, not until everyone's turned in their applications for office." I think they made the due date for those too far away. May 19? That's the day before my birthday, and it's in three weeks!! I can hardly wait that long. I almost want to vote NOW and see who wins, just to get it out of the way.

I'd love to be vice president. Overseeing the committees, working side-by-side with the president (which would hopefully be Matt--not that Meg isn't an oustanding candidate, but Matt and I would work better together, which is why we're running partners); I feel up to the challenge, ready to take on the task. I'd really be great at relaying important information between different committees.

If Matt and I were elected to office, communication would be our priority. That's been a consistent weakness the past two years. We could definitely focus in on that, as well as making the student council more accessible to the students (as far as input and feedback goes). We want everyone's voice to be heard. We tend to think alike on student government matters, which means we'd get a lot done with less chit-chat. At this point, it looks like all females will be running for the secretary and treasurer positions. This means that if Matt and I are elected, there will be a balanced male to female ratio in the executive council (which is highly favorable in all cases; girls tend to pay attention to details, and guys tend focus on getting things done--BOTH are equally important...too much of one is not a good thing though.)

But I'll be patient. I'll hang in there, and by God's grace perhaps I'll even win.

That's up to you guys;)

P.S. MR. Q--Could you edit this picture and remove the white corners for me, so it's just the blue border with the rounded edges? That would be awesome.

Friday, April 21, 2006

jmix mission statement

After proofing this response to my cousin's criticisms on my podcast, I decided it would be an excellent document to copy and paste onto my blog, since it contains a concise, accurate description of the purpose of JMix.

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Dear "Critic,"

Due to your exceedingly critical criticisms, I am obliged to respond to you. I would like to express some of my thoughts on this matter.

1. JMix is a podcast, owned and operated by myself, John Mark, and myself alone. No one else picks the songs on JMix. Rodney had suggested the songs, but ultimately it was my decision to play them.

2. Comments are to be made for the purpose of suggesting better alternatives to general problems that you see in the podcast (dictation, introductions, effects, organization, etc.). Telling me that I must have been held at gun point in order to play a certain song isn't exactly going to change anything.

3. The purpose of JMix is not to play things you like. It is to expose you to things that you would not ordinarily be exposed to. This does not by any stretch mean that it is inferior or worse in any way, as you seem to be implying; it is merely different. Music will be played on a basis of how unique it is and the amount of talent behind it (with rare exceptions--the Spice Girls song was placed there only for jest.)

Now, to more specifically address your complaints.

Bucket Head, though a strange and eccentric band, is also one full of incredible guitarists with more talent and creativity than you or I can fathom. Rodney is a friend who is my age, yet can play guitar at the level of some of the most highly regarded legends. He places in the top three in guitar-playing competitions in the Bay Area. Do you know how huge that is? The Bay area is not only San Francisco (which is already a huge amount of competition), but also Tiburon, Marin, Berkely, Daly City, Pacifica, Montera, and various other outlying suburbs that surround the bay. I'm pretty sure that means he qualifies as a talented musician, who is more than worthy to play a short sample of his playing on JMix. The sound quality was not top notch, simply because our funds are limited, thereby making our equipment quality limited. If you would like to make a donation to JMix in order to improve your user experience, please send a check to 1639 8th Avenue, San Francisco, CA, 94122, and address it to John Mark Harrell.

You may not like the hardcore, not-so-easy-on-the-ears style of rock, but I can assure you that it is not garbage, and it does have a musical theme that is different from other styles (thus, "Rock" was made into it's own genre). Punk bands like Simple Plan and Good Charlotte are NOT examples of rock (not that I'm saying you like them, I'm merely expressing a point), rather they are the mainstream's cheap imitations.

I'm certainly not saying you have to like it. In fact, I'd prefer that you admit that you dislike it rather than pretend that you do like it (there's nothing worse than that). However, we must give credit where credit is due, and in this case, you need to say that, although you wouldn't prefer listening to this music in your leisure time, you do understand that there was an enormous amount of talent behind that song/artist. I myself have to say that about certain artists. Take Christina Aguilera, for example. I really don't like to listen to her music, but she has an undeniably amazing voice. I respect her greatly for her talent in that regard, but personally wouldn't listen to any of her music in my leisure time, purely out of preference.

I hope my response has been helpful and straight to the point, though it was a bit extensive. I also hope you'll continue to find good things in my podcast, as I continue to strive to deliver talented artists and unique, different styles of music.

Thank you for your concern and involvement,

John Mark Harrell
CEO, Big Nose Productions
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firefox: solved (mostly)

After following both Matt and Mr. Q's advice (turns out that I did have some extensions that I wasn't aware of), Firefox is running much faster. It still takes longer to start up, but the speed in loading pages is the same as Safari. I think Safari creates the illusion that it's much faster because it loads all the data on the page as it comes, but Firefox pauses for a couple of seconds when opening a page, then immediately displays all the information at once. I guess it really comes down to preference as far as that goes. I'll most likely be using Firefox from now on (as I am now); it hasn't given me any problems or gotten hung up on anything so far.

I'm pretty sure Matt, Mr. Q, and Chris are the only three people who read my blog, but just in case...

If you don't have Firefox, click here or go to "getfirefox.com". It's a much better browser than Internet Explorer (in fact, the Department of Homeland Security recommends it) because it's faster, more reliable, and much safer when it comes to accidentallly downloading viruses and other harmful files that could penetrate your computer when browsing the web. Firefox also has TONS of easy-to-use, practical features that Internet Explorer doesn't have, like tabbed browsing. Tabbed browsing has changed my life, I'm not even kidding. Downloading Firefox is completely free, quick, and easy. The installation is very basic, and you can even import all your preferences from Internet Explorer over to Firefox, so that your web browsing experience is virtually the same as before (but significantly better). Firefox very user-intuitive, which means you'll figure out how to use it in no time (not that there's really that much to figure out). To further add to the list of reasons why you should get Firefox, Internet Explorer is made by Microsoft, and Microsoft is trying to force proprietary web editing methods on all users worldwide. So, instead of complying to the standards of our technology, they want to make technology comply with their standards. Firefox is extremely versatile. What does this mean? It means that you can essentially enjoy many web designs and effects on Firefox that you can't enjoy on Internet Explorer. From what I know, Internet Explorer 7 (the next generation of Internet Explorer which has not yet been officially released) will not change in this regard.

In closing...GET FIREFOX!

Thursday, April 20, 2006

what's the deal with firefox?

I'm greatly saddened by this mystery. I love Firefox; it has more features, more customization, more of just about everything, but it's so sluggish. I'm using it right now, and it's taking forever just to login to Blogger and load a few tabs at once. Safari is so zippy in comparison, I just can't make the compromise. Safari is OK, I wish it were easier to change things (more drag-and-drop action), but the interface is clean and uncluttered looking (as are all Apple programs), and it's really fast. Just from startup time to loading several tabs at once to downloading, Safari is all-around a faster browser. Why? I wish I could make Firefox my default browser, but I just can't bring myself to it.

Does anyone have any suggestions as to why it might be running slower? I don't have any extensions or themes at all. Perhaps it's just the Mac version.

I'm also frustrated with iMovie. It crashes at random. Thankfully not too often, but it is still a problem. I've had many a hard project destroyed due to unexpected crashes. I have to discipline myself to "save" every so often, but it's still very frustrating. Equally frustrating is the fact that the movie plays at about 1 FPS when the project goes over six minutes long. That means I can't really edit, because I miss half the stuff I put in there with such a low framerate. So basically, thanks to the new feature where I can have two projects open at once, I edit a section of my movie in a separate project (so I can view it at a full framerate) and then drag it over into the correct spot on my main project. Quite annoying. To be honest, the only real difference between iMovie HD (part of iLife '05) and iMovie HD 6 (part of iLife '06) is that the latter is slower and comes with these weird "themes" that I'm not quite fond of. And the latter is supposed to utilize "CoreImage", which is some newfangled technology in Tiger, but "CoreImage" seems to be slowing things down, because the video on the older version played flawlessly, even with up to 25-minute projects.

Don't get me wrong, I don't regret purchasing iLife '06 at all. The integration with .Mac and all the new features in iPhoto and Garageband make it more than worth it.

I'm not too crazy about iWeb though. It's very limiting. Good for getting basic stuff out there, like podcasts, and I've managed to add some of my own touches to the JMix website, but overall it's very hard to make it your own. I think they should have an "advanced mode" that isn't necessarily pro, but does allow you to get more in-depth with html elements and page margins and tables, etc. Luckily, Apple's "in style", so the themes they give you, though limited, are very nice-looking and well-put-together.

Wow, that's what I call going off on a tangent. I wasn't planning to talk about iLife. Adios.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

double cure

Today I'm sick of all I am, today is my setback.
First I say I love you, then I stab you in the back.

I wanna drink out of that fountain on a hill called Double Cure.
I wanna show you my allegiance, Lord. I wanna be a son of yours.

I'm so tired of all my toys. They never last for long.
They keep beaming dreams and wishes to the big dish on my lawn.

I wanna drink out of that fountain on a hill called Double Cure.
I wanna show you my allegiance, Lord. I wanna be a son of yours.

I bet you've got a story that you're just aching to tell.
I bet you've thrown some coinage down the wishing well.

Go and tell your neighbor. There is no time to waste.
Go grab your wife and sweet family. Proceed with all due haste.

I wanna drink out of that fountain on a hill called Double Cure.
I wanna show you my allegiance, Lord. I wanna be a son of yours.

You asked me why I love Him:
He gave riches to the poor,
And I will one day see that face,
Over yonder shore.

Double Cure
Vigilantes of Love

Great song. Go to my myspace if you want to hear it. The tune adds a lot to it.

new outlook, new resolve, new template

A lot of things have changed recently, so I'm breaking loose from one of the longest single designs I've had for my blog in a long time (those of you who know me also know that I am prone to spastically and radically changing my blog interface from time to time). "Snapshot Tequila" was a great template, and perhaps someday I'll find myself going back to it.

I still have a lot of customizing to do, but this is a rough draft of my layout. Hopefully I'll be able to figure things out with my html/css sleuthing skills. It took me forever to figure out how to do that header, but now I've got it down pat so I can easily replace it and resize it with anything I want. Pretty cool. It also eliminates the "font barrier", which means I can make my title any font I want, even if it's Mac-only, and use it because it's part of the picture. I LOVE Blogger. It's so easy to customize and make it your very own, which is exactly what I want.

I'll be changing the fonts on this template from Trebuchet to Arial, and perhaps figure out how to widen the margins on my post column (it's a bit skinny for my taste). Of course, I'll have to color coordinate the link color, hover, etc. Maybe I'll even figure out how to make semi-transparent background blocks like I use on the JMix website. Any tips or suggestions on how to make this page look better are appreciated.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

SOMEBODY PINCH ME

HOLY cow!!!!

HOLY cow!!!!!!

http://www.apple.com/macosx/bootcamp/

This is the coolest thing Apple has ever done, I don't care what you say. I'm seriously about to turn inside out with sheer elation.

(**My apologies for my previous profanities...let's just say I was..er..excited at the time...It is a pretty big deal though;)

the problem of Battle Cry, continued

First of all, I'd like to acknowledge the obvious reason I'm making this post, which is to respond to Mr. Q's comment. Also, let me also say that I once again not in complete opposition to what he said. In fact, I have to say that his opening comments about the "emotional" focus of Battle Cry are hitting the nail on the head. In fact, it's so full of pure truth and goodness that I'm going to paste it below so everyone who hasn't read it can read it and bask in his insight.

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"I also have a problem with Battle Cry and other similar organizations and meetigns for several reasons. Unlike you, the reasons are NOT because residends are not happy with them. Men love darkness rather than light, and want nothing to do with the light. Here's some of my complaints about Battle Cry:

(1) They build too much upon human emotions.
(2) They try to market the Gospel like a business or product.
(3) They focus on the changing of one's life or on music rather than the Gospel


They accomplish a lot of good, because the Gospel is preached -- it will not come up void! However, I think many try to accomplish too much through the means and activities of men. However, I don't believe they think they are going to issue in some "New Jerusalem," but merely want to help expose people to the Gospel and give them an opportunity to hear about teachings they may not know or may have forgotten.
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AMEN!! PREACH IT!!! HALLELLUJAH!!! I'm elated and overbrimming with joy by the sheer wit and tact with which you crafted those sentences. I was actually thinking the exact same thing, but feared that my argument would be discounted because of the fact that I didn't actually attend. But from reading the book and watching the demo video in Chapel, I noticed that both were completely devoid of the Gospel. A-Men.

Alas, sadly, this is where our agreement ends.

The story of Sodom and Gomorrah is a descriptive tale of what happened to those two cities. It's not prescriptive. It's not saying, "every evil city that has no righteous people living in it will be consumed in burning sulfur." How do I know that's not the case? Because if so, our planet would have been sucked into the sun and human life would have been destroyed altogether. The book of Romans tells us that all of us are unrighteous, and unworthy before God (Romans 3). Is it really the city of San Francisco that is vile and corrupted, or the people living in it? And if it is the people living in it, what makes them any more vile and evil than those living elsewhere? Jesus came to save us from Sin, that is, Sin with a capital "S". Sin is the undercurrent of our lives, and the dreadful disease that is woven into our hearts from birth. We are born with Sin. Therefore, it's not the amount of "sins" committed that makes someone more or less evil; it's the amount of "Sin" itself. By this reasoning, we as Christians can justify the equal need of every human being (including Christians) for God's Grace, and no hope outside of it. We are all born with the same Sin. We are all Sinful. All desperately and constantly in need of God's Grace.

Is San Francisco the modern-day Sodom and Gomorrah? I am the modern-day Sodom and Gomorrah. The evil city is not out there, but in me. That's the foundational concept of the Gospel. As Christians we must never forget that. What happens when we do? You get so-called "Christians" saying things like, "The reason New Orleans was so devasted by the hurricanes is because they sinned against God." Oh yeah, that makes sense. So why am I not being forced into a gas chamber? Why isn't the U.S.A. being blown off the face of the earth by nuclear weapons? Why hasn't the sun's gravitational pull been altered so slightly as to knock our entire solar system off balance and cause all human life to deteriorate within days?

Because there's Grace.

To be more detailed, I'll go even further. We, as humans, shake our fists at God on a daily basis. We hate judgement. We run away from it. We seek to hide our Sin with our own empty righteousness. We want to run from God and his law. We daily rebel against his laws and hate them. That hatred and fear manifests itself in different ways, but it's there. So when you say that San Francisco is full of people who hate God and are running from him, I would agree 100%. Of course, I would disagree if you said that to imply that their degree of rebellion is higher than most other cities. That's poppycock and rubbish (I've been watching a bit too much BBC America).

What makes a Christian special, you ask? A Christian has hope. A Christian has Grace. A Chrisitan isn't perfect, nor is he fully rid of Sin. Instead, his Sin no longer dominates his life. He has an undercurrent of love rather than hatred, an undercurrent of benevolence rather than malefaction. And it is not something we give ourselves, or receive as some kind of reward for "being Good and doing what God says"; it is rather a precious, gracious gift from God. Just because I am a Christian doesn't mean I'm a better person. It means that I have been saved by Grace, and that my hope has shifted from what my Sinful desires offer to what God offers.

I would further disagree when you say that most of San Francisco doesn't believe in a God. On the contrary, the whole of San Francisco, the whole world in fact, believes in a God, whether it be himself, nature, another human, or a higher, transcendent being altogether. We all have a God in our lives. Belief in a God is not the issue. It's the right God, and the Gospel of Grace which must be proven.

May God continue to use me, a vessel of Sin, to share his light with the world around me. For I am not the light, but God is the light, and I am a messenger to point people to it, so that they too can lift up their eyes and see it.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Casio Exilim EX Z-750

After a long, frustrating wait (which involved the incredibly dull-minded signature system that FedEx has), my camera finally came in the mail. I'd rant and complain about FedEx, but that's not the purpose of this post.

I got it and opened it up, and was immediately pleased by the stylish, compact form factor of the camera (some of the online images made the "Exilim" logo look like it was rainbow-colored, but I guess that was a pathetic attempt at showing off the shiny glossiness of it.) Another thing I immediately noticed was that there are not ports on the camera for direct charging/syncing. No, instead, the dock has all the ports, which means I have to use the dock no matter where I go in order to charge the thing. Bummer. But it's a small compromise.

When I got the battery in there, I turned it on and saw that they had given me one bar of battery life to start with. I was annoyed by the beeping noise it made, so I navigated through the logical, easy-to-access menu and turned the sound off. Upon doing that, the battery life went up to 2 bars. Nice.

The screen is a-ma-zing. It's 2.5 inches of pure glory. Also, the startup time is almost instantaneous. The manual features and wide assortment of scene modes are also quite easy to access and select, and come in handy. I spent some time outside taking some test shots.

After taking the pictures, I connected the usb cable to the computer, and the other end into the dock, which connected to the camera *rolls eyes*. Of course, iPhoto immediately recognized it and started up, just like iTunes when I connect my iPod. If only iTunes worked that way with all portable media players, just like iPhoto works that way with all still cameras, and iMovie with all video cameras (except Chris Knight's video camera, which didn't work but for some reason is listed on their compatability list)...It was fun to be able to fully utilize the amazing "full-screen" editing mode in the new iPhoto, without a black frame around the image (my Dad's pictures were smaller than the screen). The pictures from this camera occupied the entire screen, and it was beautiful. My Dad's camera (a Canon) took great pictures for an ultracompact 3.2 MP, but the colors were always a bit faded on it (luckily iPhoto solved the problem and dramatically improved the pictures I took with it). But not with my camera. When using the standard enhance feature, iPhoto actually de-saturized and neutralized the color in my pictures, which I didn't like so much. Now, rather than use iPhoto to make all my pictures look better, I primarily improve them quickly and easily on my camera. iPhoto still helps, but its workload is reduced by a significant margin. Another good thing about this is that color enhancement on iPhoto made the files larger, thereby making them harder to upload, and sometimes forcing me to "revert to original" in order to upload them (often the enhanced versions exceeded the maximum file size).



These images were taken with the camera's "flower shot" (macro) mode. The flower turned out nicely. The architectural swirl was clear enough, but could be a bit sharper. I'm pleased with the focus quality on close-range shots like that.


This picture was taken with the "landcape mode" (infinity focus), and it turned out to be very clear. My clearest image, in fact. The details are very articulated, and I can only imagine how good it looks on a clear, sunny day and not on a cloudy late-afternoon.


These two pictures were taken both with the macro mode, but the left was taken with a combination of macro and the "natural green" effect, which increases the saturation in green hues. The left does have a noticeably vibrant green; my shaky hands are to blame for the bluriness (luckily there's the anti-shake mode, which will of course be set as my default). The right picture has some nice water droplets on it though.



This is by far the must useful and practical mode they have, which is the "backlight" mode. This can really come in handy. The angle on the first and second shot weren't identical, but the light was behind them both, equally powerful (I know this because I took several shots of each and got many different angles--of course, I deleted all but these two because I felt they made the most accurate representation). There is a huge change, as is obvious. Please excuse the creepy look on my face, and the sounds of female screeching every time the browser window shows it.


So far I like this camera. It fits nicely into my hand, it's zippy and extremely responsive, the menu system is logical and extensive but uncomplicated. The manual features are excellent, and it even has a nifty voice recording feature. The movie clips were not very high-quality (as can be expected), but the framerate wasn't too shabby at all, and the microphone seemed to pick up the audio very well. I even like the physical feel and the precise, satisfying *click* of the buttons (including the shutter). I can't really comment on the battery life because I haven't used it enough, but so far I've had no issues with it. It supposedly has "long-life" technology, but I'm pretty sure every company claims to have "long-life" technology in their batteries nowadays.

I'd recommend this camera to anyone, unless you're a pro. Then, of course, you'd go with something a bit more powerful and clunky. But for everyone else, give this camera a look if you're in the market. The price isn't too shabby either, I got it on Amazon for about $290 (not including shipping and tax). For all the features it packs, it's a great price.

The REAL test will be Mexico. I plan on taking it with me and using up all 512 MB of it's memory (which I bought separately...don't get your hopes up, it only comes with about 8.3 MB of built-in memory). It takes SD flash memory, so if you have one already in your old camera or other electronic device, you're in luck.

Wow, see how I am? I can't even keep a post about my camera that I've only owned for a few hours shorter than 10 paragraphs. Imagine how long my posts would be if I talked about my feelings:P.

Monday, April 03, 2006

the problem of Battle Cry

Lately I've noticed the hot topic for most people's blogs is the recent Battle Cry event held in San Francisco at AT&T Park. For some reason people are thinking that Battle Cry is going to change the Bay Area and revolutionize it into some kind of "New Jerusalem." I think people are getting a bit carried away. Quite carried away, as a matter of fact.

As a resident of the city itself (and not a suburbanite like you Pacificans and citizens of Daly City :P ), I can tell you that the overall reaction to this event has been largely negative. Some would ask why. Some would question my opinion on this matter. Some would say, "Oh John Mark, you silly critic, you're always being too harsh." But what I am presenting is, sadly, factual proof.

To be perfectly honest, I learned more from the protesters than from Battle Cry. One sign that really struck me was one that said, "I moved here to get away from people like you." And you know what? That's San Francisco in a nutshell. It's full of people who have had horrible experiences with Christians and had to get away from it. Do you know how horrible it is that some people are actually relocating their positions on the globe to get away from us? Doesn't this spark any curiosity as to what the reason is for this, other than that "Satan is causing them to be repelled from the light"? Has anyone ever wondered if it's perhaps "Satan is causing us to repel others from the light"? I really believe that the ones to blame for a large amount of repulsion to Christianity lies in the Church.

From reading up (on several sources from both ends of the bias spectrum) about Battle Cry, the first thing I immediately noticed was the obsession with quantity over quality. The director challenged youth leaders to double the size of their youth groups by next year. To me, this is a classic example of what not to do. When we approach a target area for ministry, our first thought can never be a quantitative goal. This strategy is what causes ministry to be shallow, and often even passive. Should we not focus our attention on developing relationships and genuinely caring for the people around us? I feel like I've beaten this argument to death, but it's so vitally important to our ministry, and yet so often ignored. It's fast-food, "get-through-the-assembly-line" evangelism.

So is Battle Cry a good thing for the city? No. My honest answer is no. Perhaps Christians and troubled teens who attend this even can be blessed by it and be motivated to "fearlessly witness" (which too often leads to protests and demonstrations agains abortions and other highly controversial issues). As Christians, we are deeply moved by the love of the gospel, and often are emotionally touched by something we hear or sing. But we must always keep in mind that we are dealing with rational people who have not experienced this. Especially in intolerant places like San Francisco (yes, as a resident I can truly say that it is one of the most intolerant places in America), we have to be extremely delicate with our evangelism.

As a closing thought, it's very important for us not to see the Bay Area as the "modern-day Sodom and Gomorrah", but rather a city full of broken, corrupted people just like us. Though we are saved and set apart for God's Kingdom, we are equally in desperate need of God's grace. When we evangelize to a place like San Francisco, we must first recognize the sinfulness and unworthiness inside ourselves, and realize that they are no less deserving of that same grace.

I know that many of you (if not most of you) will bombard me with attacks on this issue. I hope that we can disagree and discuss this topic in love and patience. Also, please forgive me if I'm coming accross as harsh. The people who attend and organize Battle Cry are wonderful, loving people who have nothing but good, loving intentions for the people of San Francisco. I simply feel that this love needs to be expressed in different ways, and that the people of my city can be ministered to in more effective, impacting ways.

I don't have time to proofread this, so please excuse any typos. Peace out.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

thoughts on mexico

Mexico is coming up! I'm really looking forward to it, though I REALLY hope Mr. Q's back problems aren't severe enough to keep him from going. That would suck royally if he couldn't come. Pray for Mr. Quiring!!

Last year was a great experience. The part I remember enjoying the most was spending some great quality time with the people around me. It's funny, I look at this group and I say "Eh, none of us really have that much in common, like we did last year" (NOT that any of you are uninteresting or inferior in any way). The irony of it is that when we are all forced to be together in close quarters for a significant period of time, we really learn to appreciate each other and find common grounds. I agree with what Mr. Gross said today, about the tiredness. Prior to going, I thought I'd come home and collapse onto my bed and be in recovery for the following week. But in fact, it was the very opposite. I came back even more refreshed and strengthened than before. God really blessed me with the time I had last year.

I also remember complaining about the hasty altar calls and questionable commitments made to the Lord during our time there. Since then I have come to realize that it is not I, nor they, but God who decides if he will remain a strong presence in their life. In a way, it's not really up to us to "commit to God," but rather up to God to commit to us (there IS a commitment that we make, but it is one that is refreshed and strengthened only by God). And this commitment he offers freely to all who's ears are opened to his call. So whether it be through a 20 second presentation of the gospel, or a process of several years and really getting to know the meaning of the gospel in-depth, God can use it to bring his beloved to himself.

Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not pro-altar calls. The best way to show the gospel to others is by being gracious and loving to them through all things, and genuinely caring for them. The problem I have with altar calls is that it "streamlines" and "organizes" conversions, as if the gospel were an item on the menu of a fast food restaurant. "Winning people for Christ" turns into a speed relay, rather than the extremely delicate and time-consuming task that it really is. I'm also not saying that altar calls are sinful, or evil in any way. However, I believe that it's the cheapest, quckest way to do it. It's too easy to get caught up in the emotion of the moment, and then forget all about it a day later.

I love this quote by lead vocalist from Caedmon's Call, Cliff Young:
"Rich [Mullins] used to talk about how people would come up to him after concerts and say, ‘Wow! The Holy Spirit really moved at that certain point in the song,’ and Rich would respond by saying, ‘No actually, that’s where the kick drum and the bass came in.’ It’s easy to mistake energy and emotion for worship." For those of you who don't know Caedmon's call, they wrote one of the most popular worship songs in history, "God of Wonders."

I have to agree. Lighting, music, and the way things are said greatly affect people's emotions, but too often that is mistaken for worship and "movement of the Holy Spirit." While there is a sense in which we feel God's presence and grace and love in our lives (which is very much there), there is also the logical, unemotional, comprehensive side of the Christian's faith. A healthy balance of both is ideal. Altar calls tend to put all the emphasis on the emotions.

Really, though, the entire purpose of this post wasn't to complain. I've pretty much spoiled that now. But really though, I'm not complaining at all. If we have altar calls and one hundred toddlers drag their parents up there, praise God. Even such a small, seemingly insignificant statement of commitment can be used by God to fulfill his purpose. I pray that he will use us to pour out his grace over the people we minister to, no matter how we do it. I am daily amazed at how God can use such unworthy, blundering sinners like me to proclaim his coming kingdom.

Please keep us in your prayers, and especially pray that no more people get sick or injured!!!